Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Update~

Well, It's been a while but James, Kaida, and I are all doing well!! Kaida and I were sick for a little while around Christmas but we are both doing much better! We got a family dog over the holidays! A little mutt from the pound. We named her Luna, she is about 3 months old and one of the smartest dogs I have ever known! We have only had her for 3 weeks and she is already well on her way to being fully trained! The first night we had her I got her to sit and stay with no problems! She is a total doll!! She chews a lot but we fixed that by getting her lots of toys and playing with her as much as possible. We got the backyard all cleaned and got her side of the yard set up so we can put her on a runner during the day. At night she is in the house! and she will be a nice sized dog so we already know in a few months she will be able to jump the fence. Thank goodness for the stacks that go deep in the ground and have nothing sticking out.. I feel better about leaving her on it now! The rest of the back yard is still Kaida's!!

James is working and plays in a pool league every Wednesday with his Dad! Gets him out of the house and gets me some alone time! He seems to really like it so I got him a really nice pool stick for Christmas! He has been helping me with the wedding and just enjoying not working 6-7 days a week for right now.. I'm sure he will go back to that... Hopefully not too soon! I love having home with me!


Kaida is getting bigger and smarter every day!! She now knows her ABC's, all of her colors, numbers to 15 (she knows more but not consistently!), and she knows the pledge of allegiance now! She has a blossoming personality all her own! She loves to make people laugh and loves to play games!
She got hungry hippos and uno-moo for Christmas, and we got her candy land last weekend! James and I both get a kick out of playing board games with her! James got a wooden box from his Dad and painted it for a new toy box for her! She loves it. She got it from "Santa"!! Other than that my little girl is just growing up and having fun!

As for me! I've been working a lot on the wedding! Finally got my dress ordered! Just in time too! Got the DIY invitations (just got to put them together and mail them now!) . Still looking for my girls' dresses. Got Kaida's picked out! Man Weddings take a lot out of you!! Maybe I can get James to agree to the court house??! Nah, I've been trying since we got engaged and he hasn't given in yet! Work is going well! Still M-F and I am so happy that the year end madness is done now!! I can actually see the top of my desk again!!

More Updates...

We bought our first home in September!! We are all very excited about this!! We moved in the moment that they gave us the keys! Kaida calls it our new family home!! Don't know where she got that from! She has her own room again and has a lot more room to play! It is a small 3 bed/ 2 full bath starter home (2005 manufactured).. Great neighborhood, love the neighbors we have met. It is a beautiful house! And we are all very happy here!

We will be doing a lot of work to it over the next few years.. Making the back yard fencing 6ft (mostly 5-4 ft now). We want to add a 3 foot fence around the front (By the way, the front yard is HUGE!), and we want to take away a portion of the front yard and fence it with 6ft.. make the back bigger! I don't want to paint yet! ! No idea on colors yet!! We have talked about it and can't decide! We have a few more ideas but, I guess we should start with the projects we are sure about first!!

Other than that the wedding is set for April 10th at a friends house out in Inyokern (they have a beautiful view of the mountains and a lot of land!!) I'm thinking 1 or 2 in the afternoon for the ceremony! Guess I should talk to James to get his input!

Well, Happy New Year Everyone! Hope you all have a safe and blessed year!

Monday, July 20, 2009

One Year Down A Life Time To Go!

This past weekend James and I celebrated the one year mark in our relationship! I got some beautiful flowers and we went and bought a new TV! We are sharing that till I get my tattoo and/or my cd player for my car! I know I'm spoiled!!



The bad thing was he was out of town helping a friend! I couldn't say no seeing as how the week before this same friend help us with no notice!! But it was a nice weekend all in all! Spent lots of needed time with Kaida, cleaned the house and got us situated at the apartment!



It was our first night apart since we have been together. He left Saturday and came home Sunday night. Although we missed each other like crazy it was a great feeling to miss him so much and know that after a year of seeing each other everyday I still want him there with me!! When I saw him walk through the door last night he's lucky I didn't knock him over with my hugs and kisses!! I know, I know! Not what anyone but us cares about!! LOL! But it was a wonderful feeling to have him home with me again!



I did have time to think alot this weekend about how this year has been for us.

It started slow! After our first date my uncle passed away so I really didn't talk to him for about a month. I needed time to heal. The day I got home from my families I went to Kernville with him for a wedding and we have been dating ever since! We started spending everyday together from that week on! By October we got our apartment together and started to settle into our lives! Then 8 months later we found out all the problems with our apartment were unlivable and had to move with no notice, landing us in his parents house. For the last 6 months we have been looking for a home to buy! We had an offer in (about 4 months waiting by the time we moved in to his parents house) so we didn't want to get another place with a lease and have to pay all that money for a few months. We thought we would all be able to handle living together and slowly found out it was a bad idea. After two months we are now living with Nikki ( my best friend of 5 years).

Talk about a crazy year! In the past I know that I would have high taled it out of the relationship and never looked back. It's because of the past year that I know James and I will spend the rest of our lives together. We have learned to be very honest with each other, to respect each other, to always show our love for one another, to try new things together, and about a million other things that help make our relationship priceless!! I love him with all my heart and soul!! I never saw myself actually getting married until we started talking about marrige!! When we got engaged I knew then like I know now he is the only man in the world that I would ever want to have put up with me!!! :)

He is my everything, my best friend, my soulmate! He gives me courage, strength, will power! He has been my teacher, my student, my adventure buddy! You name it and that is what he is to me!!

James, I love you with my whole heart. You mean the world to me and I can't wait to look back each year and see how much we grow together!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Only 15 more years...

Well, The never ending war between my daughters father and I has once again flared up.

I get so frustrated at the fact that he truly believes that I'm the worst mom alive. YET he seem to have a harder time raising her than I do... (JUST A THOUGHT). Seeing as how I have no problem making sure she has a bath and her hair is done everyday (especially on Sundays when she is going back to him). BUT when I get her it does not seem that she has gotten that from him. Then he thinks that any little thing that happens to her when she is with me is a reason to call CPS. He always blows things WAY out of proportion. He tries to get her taken away from me for things I haven't even done and He spy's on me. If she falls and gets a scratch he wants every little detail of how when and where it happened. No matter how small the scratch is. KIDS DO GET HURT. There is NO WAY to avoid it. In my personal opinion it's good for children to learn things like that. **Don't get on the furniture and jump around you'll fall and hurt yourself. It doesn't matter how many times you tell them. In the end EVERY child gets bumps and bruises throughout there lives.** Keeping your kid in a bubble does more damage then letting them learn SOME things on there own.
I am for the most part strict about what she can and can not do. BUT I am not going to be so damned worried about every little thing that she can't even be a kid.

I'm sure you are reading this and wondering what he did to me this time that got my panties in SUCH a twist! BUT seeing as it is really THAT BAD I prefer not to talk about it until the matter is behind me.

I just want everyone that deals with an ex for your child. Remember you didn't always thing they were a bad person. Treat them with the respect that they give you. Don't think that your way is the ONLY way to raise children. Especially when you have to call the other parent with questions almost DAILY...

In no way do I feel he is a bad parent, yes I feel he could work on a few things. BUT I usually keep that to myself. I try very hard not to talked bad about him in her presents, seeing as how that is her father and I feel I have to respect their relationship. If she has every said anything about him because she is 3 and gets confused about being told no. She see's it as we are being mean to her. I will correct her by telling her that her parents lover her (including her future step-parent) and that we just want her to be safe and not get hurt.

I love my daughter more than anything. She is what keeps me going when I get so mad at the outside world. I just wish her father could see that. I feel that if I'm able to see that he does the best he can with caring for her and he would never hurt her intentinally. He should be able to do the same for me.

Monday, May 4, 2009

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Too much too fast??

Well, James and I got our gym memberships on Friday.. We started working out on Saturday. I'm really proud of us! BUT on top of that we are trying to quit smoking and eat a lot better!! We've been eating pretty well for a while now! And we've been talking about quitting smoking for a really long time! Between the two of us it's usually 10- 14 packs a week. Last week was only 3!!

I guess I just worry that since we are doing all of this at once that I'm going to back down from the challenge and go back to ALL my bad habits (I'm that person who will do really good for a few days then forget that I wanted to do it in the first place and give up)!! So far James is the VERY BEST sidekick for this life change!!! He is so motivated and he wants us to do this more than anything!! I guess I've just been too LAZY too long!! So now every morning I wake up and I just tell myself that these changes are the best things for My Family and I!

I think the hardest thing so far has been the realization that I can no longer have Carbs all day everyday :( My favorite foods are pastas, sandwiches, Chips, ANYTHING with tons of carbs..
I hate giving things up!! As you can tell!! LOL!

Kaida seems very happy with our new found energy and the fact that we count some of our park time as working out is an added bonus for all three of us!! Chasing a 3 year old can get the heartbeat going!!

Well! So far so good! I know one things for sure! I love doing this with the Hubby! If it wasn't for him I probably would still be complaining about being a fat lazy smoker! He gives me the motivation I need to stick with this! In a weird way I think that him always encouraging me and telling me that we are doing good and we just have to try harder helps him stay focused too!

Thank god for wonderful (soon to be) Husbands in this world and for the willpower to give up the things that hold you back!! SO HAPPY!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

First Timer!

So, this is my first blog! When my friend Lisa had shown me her blog spot I found it to be an interesting way to display your ideas and thoughts. I thought it was pretty cool! I feel bottled up a majority of the time so I decided to create a blog spot in hopes that this might help clear my head.. Guess we will all have to wait and see! As for me.. I am the mother of one and I am engaged to be married April 10, 2010 to a very kind and gracious man! Someone I never thought to even try and find!! I work as an Administrative Assistant for a company in the town I grew up in! It's weird not living here anymore but commuting to work daily. As time passes and I add more blogs you'll find that I change my writing direction quite a bit! Guess I have a lot to say!